Hello people of the Philippines & beyond. 🙂 I know, lately, para akong barko. Lulubog-lilitaw. I’m having a mid-life crisis, I’m sure of it. Although 50 I think is not midlife anymore nowadays. More like.. end-life? 😛

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Lucky na ako to even reach 60 lol! 😛

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Anyhoo, ewan ko ba kung ano ang napasok sa isip ko that I wanted to reinvent myself. Lately, I’ve been asking my purpose in life. Bakit ako nasa mundong ibabaw? I find myself uninspired, parang walang katuturan ang buhay ko now that the 3 kids are grown & gone most of the day.

Mornings, I wake up finding myself with so much time in my hands. I think I don’t know who I am anymore apart from being a full time mother. I scribd a lot, I netflix a lot. Anything to pass the time, albeit unproductively. I really don’t know what to do with myself -not that I’m ungrateful. Of course I feel thankful that I can afford to stay at home & do nothing all day. That I have a husband who can support us on his own. That I am accorded this easy lifestyle even as a single-income family. I am beyond appreciative. It’s just that I want to do something more with my life.

At 50, I don’t think I can go out & find work anymore. Besides, what will I do? I don’t know how to cook, I don’t know how to clean, hirap ako mag-bank so hindi rin ako pwede mag-teller hehe. Sure, I can write a little -but nothing truly amazing that’s magazine worthy. I can do some PR but surely, all the hiring goes to the much younger crowd now. People my age are obsolete in this time & age.

Going back to reinventing myself, I decided to go bold & daring in terms of my physical appearance (looks lang po muna, hindi pa kasama ang weight!). Sure fact that I am indeed, hitting midlife crisis. ;)) Now I can relate to men chucking their boring sedan & minivans for pogi sports cars. Ito pala yung feeling na yon! Grasping on your last vestige of youth, trololol! #DOMalert

For weeks, I’ve been contemplating on getting my hair cut & colored. Something extreme to get me out of my funk. Even blogging doesn’t excite me as much as it used to, so I had to do something drastic to make me feel alive again. I needed fire. RED is the answer.

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The word “Balayage” comes from another French word meaning “to sweep”. … In Balayage, there are dark pieces left on the bottom to create dimension and a more natural look. This technique looks like natural sun-kissed highlights throughout the hair. The transition is more natural and it is less maintenance than an ombre.

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So last Monday, after weeks of mulling it over & over again, I finally got brave enough & headed to the Salon with my ever supportive Ate for THE makeover. This is proof that I have gone off the deep end wahaha..

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Bahala na si Batman. Basta I wanted change. Pikit-mata, it’s now or never. I don’t wanna hit 60 tapos saka ako mag-gagaganyan?! I also wanted a messed up look & considered getting a digiperm for a just-gt-out-of-bed mussed up ‘do, but hindi daw pwede magsabay ang perm & color so I had to let one go. Straight it is then. For now. 😉

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The 2 kids picked us up on their way home from school & the Giblings handed me an envelope as I was wrapping up my new mop. I was IG story-ing my transformation from a dowdy quinquagenarian to a fiery wildcat and people were messaging me left & right about the cost so I kinda got nervous & apprehensive. Oo nga noh? Hindi ko naisip yun bago ako umarangkada! #palosapwet #50shadesofKap Like my fiery hair color, I was expecting the bill to be “madugo“. So when I opened the envelope from the kids, I was floored to find a Mother’s Day card along with a Gift Certificate for my hair metamorphosis!

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I don’t like them spending so much on me but to reject this gift would break their hearts. They like seeing me happy more than eating hahaha so I need to tough it out kahit na feel ko ilang araw din silang ginutom katitipid, waah!

What did I ever do to deserve such loving, caring, thoughtful children?? :'( #blessup

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Nakalusot tuloy ako kay Kap my Kap! The GC covered my entire bill! (Btw in case you’re wondering, here’s the breakdown: Cut by a Junior Stylist since Vicky already left by the time I was done with my color – 900 | Bleach for short hair – 3,500 | Primer/treatment – 2,000 | Color Shine Red/Pink – 3,000 | Gel Manicure & Regular Pedicure – 1,000)

I really have the best kids huhu. They knew what I wanted & needed and that’s what they got me for Mother’s Day. <3 Knowing their penchant for spoiling me rotten on special occasions, I asked them for a simple cake lang as a gift this Mother’s Day so they don’t go over-budget as they are wont to do when it comes to giving me gifts. I never expected them to actually pay for my costly beautification project! Ilang lunch period na naman kaya ang pinalampas nila just to buy me the GC! :'(( I am loved beyond measure!

So now, the million dollar question is, ano naman ang reaction ni Kap sa aking fiery transformation? Well, panoorin at kayo na ang humusga. Deal or no deal?

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Oh well, basta ako, happy. And that’s what counts. 😛 Thank you my darlings for always making me feel loved & adored. Every day with you is Mother’s Day! :-* I really can’t ask for better kids. Love you guys! <3 #luckymemommy

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So now, I really look my Bitmoji that Ate made! ;)) Yes, this is how the girls & I text & talk to each other. NKKLK! I am regressing, so help me God. 😛

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PS: Many thanks to all of you na nangungumusta & sending me emails & private messages of concern. I am alive & well. 🙂 I truly appreciate the love & the thoughts that you send my way whenever I disappear for short periods of time. My life isn’t as interesting lang at the moment kaya wala masyadong kwento. But truly, I prefer peace & silence in my life than a mountain of problems. So I’m not complaining. Just explaining. :-*