Tanging Ina

Ang hirap maging Ina. As much as I can, I really TRY & DO MY BEST. I will climb the highest mountain, and cross the deepest sea. Hanggang kaya ng powers ko, I will not stop until I succeed.

However, tao lang ako. In as much as I want to, there is a higher Being, and a higher authority I must bow down to.

May kasabihan.. Ang buhay ay parang bato, it’s hard -source: Ina Montecillo We can’t have everything we want. Even if we think it’s what’s best, we never know what the future holds. We don’t have the answer, and we don’t hold the key.

Source: Bubba Gump

These past few weeks I have felt like a failure as a mother because I can’t do this one thing for my child. I have cried, I have prayed, I have begged, I have gone over & beyond. But the answer is still a resounding NO from the higher ups.

I must admit, this is a very humbling experience. I’m used to getting my way. There have been many instances where I was able to push & make a way when there seemed to be no way. But this time, when & where it really mattered and counted the most, I failed. And I will forever regret this failure because I don’t want my child to think that mommy didn’t do her best.

To my sweetheart: I’m sorry for failing you my love. If I could shield you from the pain, the hurt, the disappointment, I will. I have done everything humanly possible, and exhausted all possibilities. But mommy has failed you. For that, I am very sorry. And I will, for the rest of my life, make it up to you.

Ultimately, this is God’s will. I am only your earthly parent, and I can only do so much. Our heavenly Father, who loves you most & encompasses all understanding, knows what’s best. He has decided. And we must obey. Know that this will only make you stronger for the path that is called LIFE

Know in your heart that I love you so very much. Your pain is my pain. Your burden is my burden. We will go through this together. You & me, forever. <3

I plan to give you love, nurturing, and just enough dysfunction to make you funny.
Life is hard enough for us to be too serious.
How blessed am I to have such an amazing, wonderful child! <3
You have not let me down my baby. Mommy loves you so very much!!!
And I’m so proud of the kind of person that you have become.
No mom could ever ask for more!!! :-*
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